From 'WE' To 'I'

 

One Year Later.....

 

I have to finally admit Terry did leave me for good.  It was a year two days ago.  It has definitely been a heartbreaking and devastating one year for me in particular changing the sentence structure from 'we' to 'I'.

 

I had my birthday last month and was like 'oh, no more birthday gift from Terry ever again'.  It was not the gift that I was missing.  Hmm.... on second thought, I should rephrase it to "It might not be.....".  Actually, it was his physical presence that I miss most dearly.  I am still holding onto the last birthday present I got from him, an beautiful Orchid plant. I have been hoping a new spike will grow every year so that I can still have a gift from him year after year.   Isn't that great?  But so far, the orchid has been pretty quiet in its own form.  I am not rushing it and am sure Terry will do something about it in his own way.

 

So, what's next for me?  Time to turn a new page in life?  Time to walk out of grief and move on?

Surviving 2012

I have been so remiss with my postings and it has been such a long time since I last wrote.  So.... my life over the last 4 months?  I have been so hooked onto watching Korean and Taiwanese dramas on my ipad for the past half a year and to make matters worse, just start picking up Sugar Crush the last two weeks!  They can definitely take my mind off one thing but getting too addicted to two hurts more.  I should have better things to do than that but I will just consider them as a therapy I need for now.